So the UBC School of Midwifery sent me a rejection letter. In it, they said "Your accomplishments in academic and service roles are impressive," but "We regret to inform you that you have not been selected for a place in the program."
They indicated that they had 'almost 100' applicants this year. This makes me a bit apprehensive about my chances for next year, although they encouraged me to reapply. Out of less than 100 applicants, they interviewed 32. Out of that 32, they chose 10. If I wasn't even in the top 32 out of less than 100??!! What are my chances? Jeepers. And based on the letter and conjecture, I did well in academic standing and work experience, but where was I lacking? It would be nice to know if it's something I can improve upon for my application for next year, like more Doula work or more volunteer experience. If it is higher academic standing, I can't fix that between now and November, but I can work on alternate plans.
I was prepared to hit the ground running in September if I got in, but now I feel a bit foolish for thinking I had a good chance, since I was somewhere in the bottom 68 or less. The thing is, there just aren't that many options out here for midwife training. I could go to Seattle Midwifery School, or distance ed through the New Mexico school of midwifery, or move to Ontario. Without my husband, who is committed to Surrey for another 2.5 years.
However, hitting the ground running while wanting another baby [but p.s. I'm not pregnant, thank you very much Rachel] and not knowing how we will be able to afford a bigger house on *less* income than before was a bit stressful, so I am somewhat relieved. I think the better scenario would have been if I had gotten an interview but not gotten a spot: then I would feel I at least had a good chance, you know? Like I was a good candidate in their eyes. I'm a good candidate in my own eyes, but apparently not so in theirs. And so I'm not entirely sure where to go from here. I was going to attend the UBC Normal Birth Conference here in Vancouver in June, but now I feel a bit disheartened. It's actually probably a very good idea to go and have that to put on my application, but it's $500 towards a profession I haven't got much hope of joining???? I know that's not entirely accurate, but that's kind of how I feel at the moment. So that's the final word.